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Jun 06, 2020 | 00:09
It is hard not to give up but I need to keep on trying, always trying harder.


Feb 25, 2020 | 17:15
I have underestimate the popularity of food importations.
So... they got mochi at the local store, huh? On a whim I bought some (red-bean and green tea). Hmm~ japanese sweets sure are something (on the back of the box it says "made in taiwan") Eh!? Oh well it's still good.


Jan 19, 2020 | 20:55

wanwan animation cel real


Jan 18, 2019 | 17:23



New era of 2020, added wide letters emotes, Mastodon posting has now peaked by 2000%


Dec 29, 2019 | 16:10



(Wait, this feels familiar lol) Any of your comments makes me want to work harder, Oda-san.


Dec 22, 2019 | 13:02
Try thinking about a random room, now. That's right, the first thing to come is... not a random room, but most likely your room, or your parents', or one you saw on the TV etc.
It's difficult to imagine a place on the fly without drawing it or thinking about placement of each furniture first.
They say when you dream, the faces you meet are ones you already saw at one point in your life, isn't it the same for places though?
Not necessary real places, can be from medias like video games (etc,), sometimes it's a mix or exagerations of multiple places I'm familiar with. I think it's the same formula for most people, isn't it.

Two days ago something was bothering me, I've had a dream but in a location I'm sure I never saw, but dreamt about once, many years ago.
With such a huge lapse of time between the two dreams, maybe I could have just forgot but my intuition isn't telling me so. My brain likes to trick me though, I remember a night I was watching this video which says one cannot read something twice in a dream, so the same night I tried to read a sign, look away, re-read the sign: something else was written everytime I turn my head... I don't trust that (lol).

In any case, the brain is full of mysteries, which is pretty exciting! I'm looking forward to the next dream featuring a place I never saw.


Dec 08, 2019 | 13:31
I think you can sense someone's personality very well depending on their reaction when they burp.
Usually most people just apologize: "Ah... sorry!" and make a confused face.
Personally here's how I react: *laughs out loud* "Eeeh this one was powerful wasn't it? It came from the bottom of my heart! Thank you for the delicious meal!"
...Yes, the personality of an idiot.


Nov 06, 2019 | 00:10
Another entry about dreams. If we assume I really didn't dream the 23rd of October that would mean I've had dreams every single night for a month minus one... how interesting.
For a year it felt like I was barely dreaming and now I dream every night for a month, I don't really know why though...

Anyway, the other day I said I was a lucid dreamer didn't I? It's still true to this day but... I noticed since I don't do nightmares anymore I 'lost' this ability (or I'd rather say, I can't summon the ability)
since I don't have the necessity to quickly wake up anymore. I also noticed it's been a while since last time I flied in a dream.
Flying as I wish feels so great, even though the context of the flights wasn't always nice (sweats). I miss doing that, so I tried concentrate before sleeping so I could fly, didn't worked yet but I'm not giving up.

Data of the dreams: out of around 30 dreams, only one was interesting/funny (3rd of Nov), its silliness/weirdness gave me inspiration too. I'm still a bit recluent about posting my dreams here,
even though it's clearly a place for that kind of stuff.
I have good memory when it comes to dreams that somehow inspire me (in some kind of way), but really I rely too much on that I should write all this stuff somewehere before I forget (laughs),
it just doesn't feel the same on paper compared to what's in my head... how unsatisfying.


Oct 30, 2019 | 11:23
At art exhibition, there's a bunch of paintings but they're all blurry for some (artistic) reason.
Mom is walking so fast I don't even have time to look at all of them.
In the middle of the small room she whispers to me "hah they're all just like higurashi backgrounds aren't they". She wasn't wrong lol.


Oct 23, 2019 | 11:13
I don't remember dreaming last night, thus the chain of dreams breaks... 12 dreams in a row! Too bad they were all uninteresting, sometimes I even had multiple dreams the same night so it's more than 12.
I think I was too pumped up for good musics I discovered to dream anyway (can one dream about music?).


Oct 18, 2019 | 11:53
Since I've been working on this website (7 days ago? wow), it's been taking 80% of what is on my mind, and I've had the funny experience of... dreaming every nights.

7 dreams in a row... it didn't happen in a looong time. The older I get the less I dream I think? The serie of dreams will probably continue, I wonder how many days it will last...

Obviously, the main theme of my dreams is the website (it's like hypnospace LOL), not that I'm dreaming OF the website, i'm just thinking about it and what I should do? I believe???
It's a bit blurry. When nothing special happens I forget quite quickly. All of my dreams are like a weird indie japanese game, I think I never had a 'normal' dream once (isn't that the purpose of a dream, to not be normal?)

I should use this diary to record the weird dreams I have, that could be interesting. I used to have only nightmares as a kid, now it's just plain weirdness, which is cool.
Actually, old memories of those nightmares (mainly between 2010 and 2017) are 100 times more interesting, I will try to write everthing I remember one day(not in this post), but because it's personal no one will find that any intriguing... Oh well

By the way, I'm born a lucid dreamer, so it wasn't that much of a problem to have so many nightmares.
This is funny; I enter the dream 'oh, this is not the real world but a dream, let's explore it since i can't die anyway', even if it gets freaky I know I'll be safe, but if something that might terrorize me happens I just go 'excuse me buddy let me pinch my cheek real quick' and I wake up before having to experience any kind of pain or traumatizing imagery.

Another data: I've had sleep paralysis once (or maybe twice but not as scary) when I was around 12-13yo? The worst is that I remember exactly what I saw and did (tried to do). Gosh, sleep paralysis truly is something you don't want to experience. The uncapacity to react to danger is terrifying, maybe I'll write an entry on that as well one day.


Oct 16, 2019 | 13:58

family


Oct 9, 2019 | 10:43
Usually when I concentrate very hard on what I should do when I wake up, I dream of waking up and getting myself prepared for whatever I need to do, it's kind of a reminder but instead of sticky notes it's a short dream.
I've had one of those today but it was slightly weirder than usual.


It's 7:15am and I'm tired, I want to sleep, my sister is making a heck of a noise. I decide I'll get up at 7:20. I concentrate very hard so my intern clock will wake me up at 7:20, as I don't want to be late for work.
I fall asleep and dream that I'm in my bed, staring at my clock as I usually do (it's an electronic clock with red neons), but I hear a banging noise, like plates bumping against each other. I think 'Oh It's my mom doing the dishes' 'But It could be my sister making noise too' '...Or something else'.

I wake up, it's 7:16, I hear the plates again, it's affecting my dreams, I still have time so I fall asleep again.
This time in my dreams I decide to get up and see downstares, my dad isn't there (probably showering), I want to see in the kitchen what is making all this fuss, the whole house has a threatening aura and it's so dark. I feel a presence.

I wake up, it's 7:18, I fall asleep.
This time my vision is distorted, the red neons of my clock move like I'm seeing triple. The noise is still there, I get up, and see some strange, skinny monsters (werewolves-like?) in the darkness, I say: 'There's powerful surnatural beings here'.
My vision is getting worse, but I say in the most natural way possible 'I'm Psychic too, I'll beat the crap out of them'. I walk very slowly and my door is facing west instead of north, like the monsters are challenging me or something. 'Shit, they're strong' I think.
I'm awake , it's 7:20, I get up and go downstairs and there's my mom in the kitchen doing the dishes, as I thought.


...Why the heck was I saying that with such confidence. I'm not psychic at all. Maybe if I train in my dreams I'll be psychic in real life? I don't want to exorcice the monsters though, I want to befriend them and ask them questions.


Jul 15, 2019 | 20:39


Jun 15, 2019 | 17:19

new era for projet103 (ft. the first doodle using this tablet lol)


Jun 01, 2019 | 14:27

finally, a place for me to live at peace.


Mar 18, 2019 | 16:04


Mar 06, 2019 | 23:07

unfortunately, it was decided that this image was too powerful and had to be scrapped from the final picture.


Oct 09, 2018 | 22:49

funny little guy, at last


Feb 28, 2018 | 01:50


human fall flat with furendo


Nov 26-Dec 31, 2017


esperamondo.net, featuring a village i helped building, my house (i share it with my furendo), this adorable little bastard chicken stealing a boat.


Oct 29, 2017 | 22:30

MY ETS2 CHARACTER


His name is Fernand Fernandel, he's a 62yo french gentleman, and passionate driver of renault trucks and other kind of big boys.
He has a company called 'Huile de Pujetâ„¢', which we can assume is specialized in olive oil. His first truck ,too, was shitty olive colored to show his love for olive oil or whatever.

He has two kids, Ben (25) and Julie (29), he wishes his kids would work for his company so they can run it in the future but they say -and I quote- "trucks fucking suck ass" so I guess Fernand will have to find someone else.
He runs this crazy business in the calm and independent country of Sweden, but has demands in all of Scandinavia (as well as Germany and Poland). He's the first olive oil importer of Scandinavia, in fact (and he's quite proud of it).
He actively tries to find a charmant little wife who loves trucks as much as he loves them, so they can live peacefully together and leave Huile de Pujetâ„¢ to the youngs.



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